Around two months back, I went to see yet another general practitioner. Following an episode of increased heart rate, weakness, chest as well as abdomen discomfort with general ill feeling that lasted for several hours. Then convinced that I must be suffering from either anxiety disorder or heart failure (or both) from what I could read. Therefore hoping to ask the doctor, above his own diagnosis, to please write me a hospital referral letter for heart failure related tests. Hoping to then after pick a date and go back to hospital for to be admitted and hopefully tested.
After both hearing my story out as well as listening to the heart through a stethoscope, he thought the case was not that of a heart failure – but that of Generalised Anxiety Disorder (GAD) instead. I reluctactly accepted the dismissal of heart failure but was happy with the anxiety findings which I had also suspected (but had not mentioned to him just yet). I have spent many of the days that followed trying to observe and can now agree that the heart itself proves to be in fair health and that the symptoms I seem to have lingering are those termed ‘physical symptoms anxiety’ indeed. Yes I get general muscle tension, muscle twitching, tension headache, chest muscle contraction as well as increased heart rate/beat that often gets better with deap breathing. The doctor suggested I take SSRIs but due to concerns on their side effects I have so far been trying recommended natural alternatives such as diet. I have not identified exactly what helps from my list and have episodes of physical symptoms at sundry times.
I always thought I had no major social related heartaches – but agree to have majors spiritual concerns. Such as concerns over those that are unsaved still (especially immediate family members such as parents, siblings, etc). Concerns ever my role in their possibly coming to take refuge in Christ, etc. I often get agitated when we receive a call from a relative – wondering if it might be a death report call. I melt over wonder on what my 3 sons might grow up to be – God fearing men or alas… sons of Belial. Whether we shall all rub shoulders in heaven or not. I prayerfully labour to bring them up after a godly manner – if by any means I may affect their resulting end positively. Otherwise I have been in far better health than I have for several months past. The Lord God have mercy over all in Christ Jesus’ name.
I pray for my healing still but now seem to understand that unless I or someone praying over me have a gift of healing, it may take longer to avail divine healing. Otherwise I am as well willing to read much on how diet could help improve my condition.