As the concern for ministerial funds thus continued, I came to consider posting a help appeal on the SermonIndex community forum (though the actual appeal is hosted on Alms). It is the only online community I found to have (sadly with exceptions) folks that are appears to be earnestly pressing towards the mark of the price of the high calling of God. This is not to say that there are no other evangelical forums worthy of a saint’s consideration out there – it is just the only one I am aware of as of current.
While the counsel to thus proceed appeared to be a lot better than some of the sources I have looked at in the past, a few issues existed. Dear Lord asking for help where it is least expected is humbling – and this was not an exception. I stood ready to settle for going the tentmaker route due to this dread – but I felt it was demanded of me to wash my hands on this first (be able to say that I tried the saints without success). Especially since going the tentmaker route meant a longer turnaround time. And thus felt it was demanded of me to make decisions that I felt would be in favour of the cause of the Lord – even if doing this meant my humiliation.
I also understood that this could be censored as abuse to a forum where discussions are intended (and thereby bring it to halt prematurely). But again I felt if indeed my appeal was valid, that the officials may similarly feel it their duty to thus act in the best interest of the Lord’s cause. Even if doing meant compromising their terms (I earnestly hope I have put this right). Moreover, I think I recall a post made there, where an appeal was essentially being made on behalf of a certain needy cause. But still, I had to understand that the mine could anyhow still get censored – especially since it is technically on behalf of it’s author (myself). Something that was not the case with the one I recall.
This route also left me with a strong feeling of being indebted to any possible giver. That as many as may give should likely be interested on how their gifts are being employed (not that I doubt my intents) – just as one would from business stakeholders. That they should in like manner wish to know if any godly virtue is being wrought therewith – especially since that is what one of the signs that one’s gift was best bestowed). A feeling that would not be warranted were I to finance the work with funds I earned (or may earn).
The aggregate of which certainly brought me to conclude that the Lord must hereby be continuing to humble my person. Especially since I know very well that the attempt may still fail badly unless if he should grant that it thrive. O that his will may ever be yielded to.