Often times around the middle of the month, I would receive a petty loan request from this one (yet Christless) sister of mine living with her husband and kids over 100 miles away – promising to return it on their pay day. Now because her husband receives his salary on the 25th, (about 5 days before I am fully due for bills and other month-end obligations) it normally made sense to lend to her from the bills savings I collect throughout the month (from business proceeds).
And this practice indeed dates back to when we lived with Gogo’s. All along not suspecting until my sister’s recent request – which was on the 17th. When it suddenly appeared to me that it was questionable to blindly lend to hear without information on what she is to use the funds for. Well I had all along assumed she was supplementing food supplies but I at that point unsure and felt I needed a word from here each time. Yes while we are to ask no questions at times, certain setups requires that we should ask lest we should through neglect lend a hand in the name of Christian charity only to be cursed of God. In my reply to her request, I essentially advised that I, from then on, wished she would disclose what she purposes to spend the funds on for each request.
This was indeed never a simple task – that I in fact felt like it was one of those setups where I needed to choose between a sibling and the Lord. And being thus in a dilema I sought hard to see if there existed a way to proceed without offending either parties but found none. I considered advising her that I did not have the requested funds but failed to workout how this would be true as I did have funds on hand and that her repayment date, as allude above, was ever days before I would be due for month-end obligations and bills.
It has been over a week since we had this talk and I have yet to receive any reply on the same. I can tell she saw/read my reply because the platform the conversation was had can mark dialogs as such – my repy indeed was. And also that it is unlike her to go quiet like that. Yea that I may not be found to love sister, brother or mother more than the Christ of God. That the sword that saparetes may do so as often as need be!