Admitted to hospital for about 4 days due to chest pain. She was already hypertension and something about diabetics was noted during the 4 days. And the medical report in the end mentioned heart attack. She professed Christianity for about as long as I did (since around 2009). With claims that she even preaches at…
Eventually diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder
Around two months back, I went to see yet another general practitioner. Following an episode of increased heart rate, weakness, chest as well as abdomen discomfort with general ill feeling that lasted for several hours. Then convinced that I must be suffering from either anxiety disorder or heart failure (or both) from what I could…
A heart invalid until further notice
As we must have expected, though prayerfully and hoped for the best, I continued to be sickly at sundry times following the day of the last diary entry. On one occasion suffering what seemed to be a more general chest pain. A type that felt quite different from the usual one understood as angina –…
The day of the GM Appointment
From the visit accounted for on the 21st April entry, I was booked for a certain GMOPD (GM Outpatient Department) 7 days from then and was sent home with pretty much same tablets. While I was happy for the treatment, I could not say the same of the appointment – mainly due to the same…
The gloom of sickness permitted of the Lord
While we are thusfar spared from the devastation of the ongoing pandemic (Convid-19), it has pleased the Lord to allow in the gloom of sickness anyway. For some three weeks now I have continued with a rather concerning chest conditions. It gets tight, heavy or tensioned. At one time it got so serious that I…
Let a sinner’s death report find me praying
I have for a long time now often got greatly troubled upon receiving a death report. Especially where I stood in great doubt if the deceased was known by Christ. Understanding that they then must have thus ran out of chance (as far as salvation is concerned). Greatly wondering at times (though not in a…
Resolving to forfeit all possible inheritance from Gogo…
Sometime following the first resolution, I felt the need to further commit to not to keeping any inheritance we may be entitled to from Gogo’s should she pass outsite Christ (and of cause before we should). While the previous resolution made a lot of sense, the problem arose when one began to feel like they…
How we finally relocated
In the ordinary, a highly probable hope of relocating seemed fall in the ending of February 2020 – as we had a short-term bank loan we expected to settle by then. After which event we hoped to receive yet another loan offer. While thus minded, a thought crossed the mind early in the month of…
Humbled of the Lord
As the concern for ministerial funds thus continued, I came to consider posting a help appeal on the SermonIndex community forum (though the actual appeal is hosted on Alms). It is the only online community I found to have (sadly with exceptions) folks that are appears to be earnestly pressing towards the mark of the…
Never given until given
As I mused over our ongoing needs one morning, I came to the following emphasis – that simply because there are large sums exchanging hands out there does not necessary mean that I can, through some business means or idea, fork myself the chunk I need at my discretion. But that the most viable business…