As we must have expected, though prayerfully and hoped for the best, I continued to be sickly at sundry times following the day of the last diary entry. On one occasion suffering what seemed to be a more general chest pain. A type that felt quite different from the usual one understood as angina –…
The day of the GM Appointment
From the visit accounted for on the 21st April entry, I was booked for a certain GMOPD (GM Outpatient Department) 7 days from then and was sent home with pretty much same tablets. While I was happy for the treatment, I could not say the same of the appointment – mainly due to the same…
The gloom of sickness permitted of the Lord
While we are thusfar spared from the devastation of the ongoing pandemic (Convid-19), it has pleased the Lord to allow in the gloom of sickness anyway. For some three weeks now I have continued with a rather concerning chest conditions. It gets tight, heavy or tensioned. At one time it got so serious that I…
Let a sinner’s death report find me praying
I have for a long time now often got greatly troubled upon receiving a death report. Especially where I stood in great doubt if the deceased was known by Christ. Understanding that they then must have thus ran out of chance (as far as salvation is concerned). Greatly wondering at times (though not in a…
Resolving to forfeit all possible inheritance from Gogo…
Sometime following the first resolution, I felt the need to further commit to not to keeping any inheritance we may be entitled to from Gogo’s should she pass outsite Christ (and of cause before we should). While the previous resolution made a lot of sense, the problem arose when one began to feel like they…
How we finally relocated
In the ordinary, a highly probable hope of relocating seemed fall in the ending of February 2020 – as we had a short-term bank loan we expected to settle by then. After which event we hoped to receive yet another loan offer. While thus minded, a thought crossed the mind early in the month of…
Humbled of the Lord
As the concern for ministerial funds thus continued, I came to consider posting a help appeal on the SermonIndex community forum (though the actual appeal is hosted on Alms). It is the only online community I found to have (sadly with exceptions) folks that are appears to be earnestly pressing towards the mark of the…
Never given until given
As I mused over our ongoing needs one morning, I came to the following emphasis – that simply because there are large sums exchanging hands out there does not necessary mean that I can, through some business means or idea, fork myself the chunk I need at my discretion. But that the most viable business…
The allure of potentially vile money
I have for a long time now been looking up to God for financial intervention. And have as well made several efforts in the application of means towards the same (as noted on the recently published diary entry) – not only for subsistence but also to cater for ministerial project activities. Unlike back when one was…
Praying still but be more retired to suffer longer
After months of laboring, both in prayer as well as in the application of means (work), to break away particularly from our compromised leased home; I feel I may have applied means in excess unawares (to try and help the situation) and must need slack off. Especially when pondering that we can never avail justified…